So I’m still around. I still consider myself to be a transgender woman. Still struggling with gender dysphoria and want to transition. At the same time I want to not want to transition but I don’t think I’d be myself if I didn’t transition. So it’s complicated. The morality is complicated to me. I’ve since learned that Missouri synod Lutheran Church would certainly be against transition. I also grapple with the idea that I would cause a divorce by transitioning. Additionally I would tear up the family. So can I live with the guilt of that and the guilt of my mom believing I was morally wrong? And maybe to some extent I also would carry that guilt?
In theory God is bigger than this and can heal it. Am I not Christian enough if it doesn’t get healed?
Or instead is God calling me to transition. Transition is my means of healing?