Author: hannahpi

Email to mom (4/17) transition

Hey mom, I don’t think I’ll ever be prepared enough to sway your opinion on this. And maybe that shouldn’t be my goal anyway. I already feel defeated because I don’t see any scenario where we arrive at a productive end. But this isn’t chess. This is a relationship. And I know you’re concerned about… Continue reading Email to mom (4/17) transition

I’m still around

So I’m still around. I still consider myself to be a transgender woman. Still struggling with gender dysphoria and want to transition. At the same time I want to not want to transition but I don’t think I’d be myself if I didn’t transition.  So it’s complicated. The morality is complicated to me. I’ve since… Continue reading I’m still around

I’m sad

I’m sad today. I’ve been sad lately. Chronically sad. Depressed. But feeling the sadness again. I know I’ve been worrying about death. What if there’s nothing after? Then it’s tragic because I’ll forget myself. Is that as sad to other people as it is to me? Maybe not because of faith. Eternity is equally scary.… Continue reading I’m sad

Still around

Hello, I’m still around, still write from time to time. Grandpa passed away recently. A couple years ago while I was going to sleep I feel like I told him that it was ok and he could leave if he wanted to. He stuck around for a bit longer I would’ve expected. He was not… Continue reading Still around

Grandpa

Grandpa was a self made man. He kept his own garden, fixed anything within his means. If he couldn’t figure something out he’d ask other people how to fix things. Once he started working on something, he would often be determined to see it through, steadfast in his resolve to fix or complete his project.… Continue reading Grandpa

Hair cut

So I recently got a haircut. My hair is now short. It’s definitely more functional. The long hair was enjoyable. I wish people were ok that I had a woman’s hair cut. I didn’t get too many comments against it but I did get some rather odd looks from people. I can tell some people… Continue reading Hair cut