Hello, I’m still around, still write from time to time. Grandpa passed away recently. A couple years ago while I was going to sleep I feel like I told him that it was ok and he could leave if he wanted to. He stuck around for a bit longer I would’ve expected. He was not… Continue reading Still around
Category: Life
A normal life post. These posts aren’t dominated by feelings and desires of wanting to transition.
Grandpa
Grandpa was a self made man. He kept his own garden, fixed anything within his means. If he couldn’t figure something out he’d ask other people how to fix things. Once he started working on something, he would often be determined to see it through, steadfast in his resolve to fix or complete his project.… Continue reading Grandpa
Does everything have a problem?
I wish I would write more when things are good. Today I have no energy and don’t want to write at all. I’m not even sure what to write. I’m just deflated and want to go back to bed. Normal life I guess. Emotions: Overwhelmed, Stressed, Ashamed, Guilty, Remorseful, Depressed, Discouraged, Deflated, Hurt, Lonely, Excluded,… Continue reading Does everything have a problem?
Rehash
I don’t want to transition as a means to solve a problem. I want to transition as a means to connect to myself. I don’t want to transition because the grass is greener on the other side. I’m thinking the grass is probably frozen. I think I would rather be able to dance in the… Continue reading Rehash
Oncall week
So this week has been a bit rough. Oddly not so rough on the personal side. Mostly work stuff. I got promoted effective yesterday. I think I mentioned it in my previous post but I went from being an Associate Application Developer to Application Developer. (I lost my training wheels!) Anyway this week I was… Continue reading Oncall week
Work: Promotion
I recently got promoted. I’m dropping my “training wheels” and dropping the “Associate” from my title and becoming an (Intermediate) Application Developer! The email went out yesterday (4/5) and I got several congratulations from it (11 if we’re keeping track). For the promotion they disguised the meeting as a “touch point” as though they were… Continue reading Work: Promotion
The reflection in the tears
I feel a deep despair. The mirror reflects a man in dismay I awake with the same hair, I know–it’s silly to expect to awake a different way. Unaware I was the pain reside, Unaware I was until eyes were open, In the sadness a reason hide, In the mirror one of the men. A… Continue reading The reflection in the tears
Anecdote: Raised a Girl
This story is one that is not my own. I also do not know the person in any capacity other than that of which they posted online (reddit/quora). So yes this is an anecdote. The reason I’m posting this is to have people reconsider gender identity–how it forms–how activities have little to do with identity.… Continue reading Anecdote: Raised a Girl
The “secret” world of Hannietty
Ok I don’t think my name lends itself too well to this post, I definitely had Studio Ghibli in mind (The Secret World of Arrietty). I found great relief from my online friends. I don’t know if I talked much about this in any of my posts. But at some point after I knew I… Continue reading The “secret” world of Hannietty
Life and …
My grandpa isn’t doing so well. He has COPD. His condition has been slowly declining over the years. I would say it was probably 6 or 7 years ago when things first got dire. He was put on oxygen–I don’t know that we expected for him to stick around as long as he has. But… Continue reading Life and …