I know it’s stupid. I wake up, wish I had been born a woman.
Is it really that stupid? I don’t know
I think about it from the outside–someone who doesn’t acknowledge transgender people–their words becoming the voice in my head “he thinks he’s a woman” how ridiculous. Or I think about my wife talking to other people about me how I thought I was a woman, how for a day I entertained the idea of a flat earth. I debunked it for myself while thinking about the “southern hemisphere” being wrapped around the north pole and then the reality of constellations found south of the equator. On a disc this doesn’t make sense.
I have to wonder what is wrong with me, why could I think this? How could I really think this?
Then… how can I invalidate myself–how do I keep doing this to myself?