I think this comes down to my mom getting to me. I think I need some help kind of sorting through all of this. I think I have an idea of what it comes down to. My mom mentioned the following things: I didn’t like playing with dolls growing up and chose being outside, playing… Continue reading Am I Even Transgender?
Category: Trans Life
A post about that transgender life.
Prayer
Dear God, I want to transition into a female. I don’t think this takes away from sacred creation. I believe sin has entered our world and that birth has defects and an imperfect birth does not result in an imperfect creation. I believe sin has caused a grip on our hearts and souls and that… Continue reading Prayer
I just want you to set it aside and love yourself
I posted what follows to a group of transwomen: I hope today finds you well and you feel a little more feminine and a little more at home as a woman. I hope you take things less personally, and become skilled at picking your battles. Reserve energy for those who are truly worth it. I… Continue reading I just want you to set it aside and love yourself
Sometimes it’s just difficult
I think I’m feeling overwhelmed with everything. From things needed to transition to things encountered socially, to my overall mood and internal turmoil. I’m just a bit tired. I also apologize for posting a book here lol. Supportive. Prior to my accepting of being a trans woman I watched lost in transition with my wife.She asked… Continue reading Sometimes it’s just difficult
“You’re a girl at heart”
A couple days ago my daughter told me that I was a girl at heart. I was pretty happy and also sad–I want to be a girl. I feel like I’ve started to kind of slip, refer to myself as her at the tip of my tongue anyway. I don’t think I’ve done it yet.… Continue reading “You’re a girl at heart”
Dear World
I don’t know where I’m at right now. I’m a bit sad which often finds me here. I’m in that place where I wish I was a girl. What a stupid notion sometimes I think to myself. What a weird desire to have had strongly throughout life and when it churned on in the background–a… Continue reading Dear World
Suspended female
It’s been a while since I’ve posted. My account got suspended on livejournal for a while and it took a week or two to resolve that. I wonder if someone flagged it or if their system automatically flagged it for spam. My last entry had a ton of links on it. I had been emailing… Continue reading Suspended female
Transbrainia
I just wanted to post about the brains of those who are transgender. It’s possible that for trans we may have brains of the desired (or identified) gender. So next time you think about the biological connection reconsider what you’re saying. There’s more to bodies and our development than strictly genetic development. Although it’s possible… Continue reading Transbrainia
Doubt and Dysphoria
Today I woke up, the first thought is I’m not a woman. Why is that my first thought everyday? I don’t know why I wake up and expect something different to happen. I don’t remember what my dreams have been about lately I half wonder if I am a girl in all of them. Living… Continue reading Doubt and Dysphoria
Hello World
Hello everyone. I’m creating this journal to blog mostly about transitioning. My name is Hannah, I’m a 36 year old trans woman (so I’m male to female), pre-everything at this point. I guess I should talk about my journey thus far. And what it means to be trans. Square one: Gender Dysphoria. I think I’ll… Continue reading Hello World