Emotions: hurt, confused, rejected, helpless, submissive, insecure, guilty, ashamed, stupid, inferior, lonely, tired, sleepy, apathetic, isolated, insignificant, hesitant, skeptical, withdrawn I feel hurt because I know my wife won’t accept me as a woman. I feel confused because I want to do anything I can to keep her. I feel rejected knowing that what I… Continue reading Feeling… despair
Author: hannahpi
Let’s talk Endwalker
I have to say I enjoyed the new Endwalker expansion to Final Fantasy XIV. I’m assuming if you’re here you’ve already played through Main Scenario (at least as of 6.01). It was tough to get into. Eventually we end up in Garlemald and I’ve always had mixed feelings about the Garlemald storyline. This kind of… Continue reading Let’s talk Endwalker
Anecdote: Raised a Girl
This story is one that is not my own. I also do not know the person in any capacity other than that of which they posted online (reddit/quora). So yes this is an anecdote. The reason I’m posting this is to have people reconsider gender identity–how it forms–how activities have little to do with identity.… Continue reading Anecdote: Raised a Girl
What I really wanted for Christmas
I’m sorry for yet another… kinda sad post from me. I’m just sad for… well because I feel unaccepted. It’s strange what happens when you recognize a problem. Especially when you don’t like the cost to resolve it. Anyway what I really wanted for Christmas (not that I wanted all of this): A cute outfit,… Continue reading What I really wanted for Christmas
The “secret” world of Hannietty
Ok I don’t think my name lends itself too well to this post, I definitely had Studio Ghibli in mind (The Secret World of Arrietty). I found great relief from my online friends. I don’t know if I talked much about this in any of my posts. But at some point after I knew I… Continue reading The “secret” world of Hannietty
Transgender “bible”
I’m thinking about adding a resource page for my blog site. It will contain bookmarks for transgender resources that I’ve come across on my journey. For now I wanted to post what is called the “transgender bible.” It’s definitely not a bible, it’s just a massive resource that is available. https://genderdysphoria.fyi/
Life and …
My grandpa isn’t doing so well. He has COPD. His condition has been slowly declining over the years. I would say it was probably 6 or 7 years ago when things first got dire. He was put on oxygen–I don’t know that we expected for him to stick around as long as he has. But… Continue reading Life and …
What to do about transition
I wish I could tell you what you should do, a perfect formula. Use this to get out of any social barbs you may run into, use this to get yourself free from snags. I don’t have it. I think many of you are probably just plain bold enough to rely on your autonomy and… Continue reading What to do about transition
Am I Even Transgender?
I think this comes down to my mom getting to me. I think I need some help kind of sorting through all of this. I think I have an idea of what it comes down to. My mom mentioned the following things: I didn’t like playing with dolls growing up and chose being outside, playing… Continue reading Am I Even Transgender?
Prayer
Dear God, I want to transition into a female. I don’t think this takes away from sacred creation. I believe sin has entered our world and that birth has defects and an imperfect birth does not result in an imperfect creation. I believe sin has caused a grip on our hearts and souls and that… Continue reading Prayer