Content Warning: Transphobic post. There’s a war raging on in me. A war against my self. I don’t know which part of “self” is more authentic. Is it the one that I find during introspection–the one that emerges when doing soul seeking? The one that has always put herself last and is sick of it?… Continue reading War against Self
Category: Religion
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Does everything have a problem?
I wish I would write more when things are good. Today I have no energy and don’t want to write at all. I’m not even sure what to write. I’m just deflated and want to go back to bed. Normal life I guess. Emotions: Overwhelmed, Stressed, Ashamed, Guilty, Remorseful, Depressed, Discouraged, Deflated, Hurt, Lonely, Excluded,… Continue reading Does everything have a problem?
God won’t make me a girl
I had a weird dream a couple nights ago: I don’t remember the circumstances but I remember hitting a point where I was very frustrated. I know this comes after talking to my mom about religion and my being transgender. I feel conflicted about being transgender again because I was brought up in a church… Continue reading God won’t make me a girl
Life and …
My grandpa isn’t doing so well. He has COPD. His condition has been slowly declining over the years. I would say it was probably 6 or 7 years ago when things first got dire. He was put on oxygen–I don’t know that we expected for him to stick around as long as he has. But… Continue reading Life and …
What to do about transition
I wish I could tell you what you should do, a perfect formula. Use this to get out of any social barbs you may run into, use this to get yourself free from snags. I don’t have it. I think many of you are probably just plain bold enough to rely on your autonomy and… Continue reading What to do about transition
A Prayer…
A prayer for all those hearts seekingsomething to fill the void deep in their soulto find themselves whole. A prayer for all those hearts hurtingaching for the truths they findand the truths hidden away. A prayer for those who have lostto those missing their loved onestorn away from our world into the next. A prayer… Continue reading A Prayer…