Hi everyone. This is something that weighs heavy in my heart. I find myself weighing different religious views (under the Christian umbrella) and I’m just uncertain where I land. I grew up in the Missouri Synod Lutheran Church. I believe my views have changed since then. I have trouble not looking back and just moving… Continue reading A Difficult Split
Category: Warning: Transphobic
Email to mom (4/17) transition
Hey mom, I don’t think I’ll ever be prepared enough to sway your opinion on this. And maybe that shouldn’t be my goal anyway. I already feel defeated because I don’t see any scenario where we arrive at a productive end. But this isn’t chess. This is a relationship. And I know you’re concerned about… Continue reading Email to mom (4/17) transition
Why are Republicans in the US banning or making it harder to receive care for trans people?
First of all, to the conservative Republican, transgender people don’t really exist. They just consider us as people who are simply confused about their gender and/or are hiding other problems behind “transgenderism.” Secondly putting together any sort of anti LGBTQ+ agenda could be a golden ticket to the top. Republicans are really energized right now… Continue reading Why are Republicans in the US banning or making it harder to receive care for trans people?
War against Self
Content Warning: Transphobic post. There’s a war raging on in me. A war against my self. I don’t know which part of “self” is more authentic. Is it the one that I find during introspection–the one that emerges when doing soul seeking? The one that has always put herself last and is sick of it?… Continue reading War against Self
Does everything have a problem?
I wish I would write more when things are good. Today I have no energy and don’t want to write at all. I’m not even sure what to write. I’m just deflated and want to go back to bed. Normal life I guess. Emotions: Overwhelmed, Stressed, Ashamed, Guilty, Remorseful, Depressed, Discouraged, Deflated, Hurt, Lonely, Excluded,… Continue reading Does everything have a problem?
Euphoric Haircut
I got a haircut on Saturday was probably one of the most euphoric experiences in my life lol. I told him that I wanted something feminine and that I wanted to grow it out. And he mentioned giving it shape which sounded like what I was looking for. After my haircut another hairdresser complimented my… Continue reading Euphoric Haircut
Confused?
I am too. I wish I could wake up in some other universe where I’ve always been a woman. I know it’s stupid, and maybe not healthy to keep thinking about. Motivations for this thought are probably how unwilling some are to accept transgender women as women. Or how I would have to risk my… Continue reading Confused?
Trans-rejection
Today I talked with my mom about being transgender. Or rather she talked to me. I couldn’t really say much at the time. I think I mainly like to take what she says and mull over it for a while and see how I feel later. The classic objection to transgender people, or she had… Continue reading Trans-rejection