Transition – Page 2

Confused?

I am too. I wish I could wake up in some other universe where I’ve always been a woman. I know it’s stupid, and maybe not healthy to keep thinking about. Motivations for this thought are probably how unwilling some are to accept transgender women as women. Or how I would have to risk my… Continue reading Confused?

Feeling… despair

Emotions: hurt, confused, rejected, helpless, submissive, insecure, guilty, ashamed, stupid, inferior, lonely, tired, sleepy, apathetic, isolated, insignificant, hesitant, skeptical, withdrawn I feel hurt because I know my wife won’t accept me as a woman. I feel confused because I want to do anything I can to keep her. I feel rejected knowing that what I… Continue reading Feeling… despair

What I really wanted for Christmas

I’m sorry for yet another… kinda sad post from me. I’m just sad for… well because I feel unaccepted. It’s strange what happens when you recognize a problem. Especially when you don’t like the cost to resolve it. Anyway what I really wanted for Christmas (not that I wanted all of this): A cute outfit,… Continue reading What I really wanted for Christmas

The “secret” world of Hannietty

Ok I don’t think my name lends itself too well to this post, I definitely had Studio Ghibli in mind (The Secret World of Arrietty). I found great relief from my online friends. I don’t know if I talked much about this in any of my posts. But at some point after I knew I… Continue reading The “secret” world of Hannietty

Transgender “bible”

I’m thinking about adding a resource page for my blog site. It will contain bookmarks for transgender resources that I’ve come across on my journey. For now I wanted to post what is called the “transgender bible.” It’s definitely not a bible, it’s just a massive resource that is available. https://genderdysphoria.fyi/

What to do about transition

I wish I could tell you what you should do, a perfect formula. Use this to get out of any social barbs you may run into, use this to get yourself free from snags. I don’t have it. I think many of you are probably just plain bold enough to rely on your autonomy and… Continue reading What to do about transition

Am I Even Transgender?

I think this comes down to my mom getting to me. I think I need some help kind of sorting through all of this. I think I have an idea of what it comes down to. My mom mentioned the following things: I didn’t like playing with dolls growing up and chose being outside, playing… Continue reading Am I Even Transgender?

Prayer

Dear God, I want to transition into a female. I don’t think this takes away from sacred creation. I believe sin has entered our world and that birth has defects and an imperfect birth does not result in an imperfect creation. I believe sin has caused a grip on our hearts and souls and that… Continue reading Prayer

So many names…

I know I’ve been through so many names. I’ve finally settled on Hannah. It was a name my mom had picked out for me if I were born a girl. Other contenders were Anna(mom) and Josephine(dad). Sorry dad, I like Hannah better. It’s been a while since I posted. I don’t remember if I mentioned… Continue reading So many names…

I just want you to set it aside and love yourself

I posted what follows to a group of transwomen: I hope today finds you well and you feel a little more feminine and a little more at home as a woman. I hope you take things less personally, and become skilled at picking your battles. Reserve energy for those who are truly worth it. I… Continue reading I just want you to set it aside and love yourself