I don’t want to transition as a means to solve a problem. I want to transition as a means to connect to myself. I don’t want to transition because the grass is greener on the other side. I’m thinking the grass is probably frozen. I think I would rather be able to dance in the… Continue reading Rehash
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Euphoric Haircut
I got a haircut on Saturday was probably one of the most euphoric experiences in my life lol. I told him that I wanted something feminine and that I wanted to grow it out. And he mentioned giving it shape which sounded like what I was looking for. After my haircut another hairdresser complimented my… Continue reading Euphoric Haircut
Confused?
I am too. I wish I could wake up in some other universe where I’ve always been a woman. I know it’s stupid, and maybe not healthy to keep thinking about. Motivations for this thought are probably how unwilling some are to accept transgender women as women. Or how I would have to risk my… Continue reading Confused?
RIP Stadia
So Google announced on September 29, 2022 that Stadia will be shutting down effective January 18, 2023. Quick shut down. I have been anticipating this day since it came out. I loved the technology and I thought the implementation was relatively strong. The adoption by Google was not as strong as I had hoped and… Continue reading RIP Stadia
Two Auras
A fog had overcome the land at that point, swallowing it whole. Light still poured in from angles unknown. Slight breeze filled the damp air, then suddenly I could see two. The one on the left, an aura with something flowing and smooth. A silky streamer continuous through and through. A delicate dance soft and… Continue reading Two Auras
God won’t make me a girl
I had a weird dream a couple nights ago: I don’t remember the circumstances but I remember hitting a point where I was very frustrated. I know this comes after talking to my mom about religion and my being transgender. I feel conflicted about being transgender again because I was brought up in a church… Continue reading God won’t make me a girl
Trans-rejection
Today I talked with my mom about being transgender. Or rather she talked to me. I couldn’t really say much at the time. I think I mainly like to take what she says and mull over it for a while and see how I feel later. The classic objection to transgender people, or she had… Continue reading Trans-rejection
Oncall week
So this week has been a bit rough. Oddly not so rough on the personal side. Mostly work stuff. I got promoted effective yesterday. I think I mentioned it in my previous post but I went from being an Associate Application Developer to Application Developer. (I lost my training wheels!) Anyway this week I was… Continue reading Oncall week
Work: Promotion
I recently got promoted. I’m dropping my “training wheels” and dropping the “Associate” from my title and becoming an (Intermediate) Application Developer! The email went out yesterday (4/5) and I got several congratulations from it (11 if we’re keeping track). For the promotion they disguised the meeting as a “touch point” as though they were… Continue reading Work: Promotion
I know it’s stupid
I know it’s stupid. I wake up, wish I had been born a woman.Is it really that stupid? I don’t know I think about it from the outside–someone who doesn’t acknowledge transgender people–their words becoming the voice in my head “he thinks he’s a woman” how ridiculous. Or I think about my wife talking to… Continue reading I know it’s stupid