Author: hannahpi
An Old Post
December 14, 2011 from flesh to dustfrom life to deathfrom physical to spiritualfrom death to lifefrom hatred to lovefrom pain to blissfrom heart break to unionfrom confusion to conclusionfrom start to finishfrom finite to infinitefrom temporary to permanentfrom prototype to finalfrom clay to potfrom death to lifefrom self to multitudefrom emptiness to overflowingfrom choice to… Continue reading An Old Post
Does everything have a problem?
I wish I would write more when things are good. Today I have no energy and don’t want to write at all. I’m not even sure what to write. I’m just deflated and want to go back to bed. Normal life I guess. Emotions: Overwhelmed, Stressed, Ashamed, Guilty, Remorseful, Depressed, Discouraged, Deflated, Hurt, Lonely, Excluded,… Continue reading Does everything have a problem?
Rehash
I don’t want to transition as a means to solve a problem. I want to transition as a means to connect to myself. I don’t want to transition because the grass is greener on the other side. I’m thinking the grass is probably frozen. I think I would rather be able to dance in the… Continue reading Rehash
Euphoric Haircut
I got a haircut on Saturday was probably one of the most euphoric experiences in my life lol. I told him that I wanted something feminine and that I wanted to grow it out. And he mentioned giving it shape which sounded like what I was looking for. After my haircut another hairdresser complimented my… Continue reading Euphoric Haircut
Confused?
I am too. I wish I could wake up in some other universe where I’ve always been a woman. I know it’s stupid, and maybe not healthy to keep thinking about. Motivations for this thought are probably how unwilling some are to accept transgender women as women. Or how I would have to risk my… Continue reading Confused?
RIP Stadia
So Google announced on September 29, 2022 that Stadia will be shutting down effective January 18, 2023. Quick shut down. I have been anticipating this day since it came out. I loved the technology and I thought the implementation was relatively strong. The adoption by Google was not as strong as I had hoped and… Continue reading RIP Stadia
Two Auras
A fog had overcome the land at that point, swallowing it whole. Light still poured in from angles unknown. Slight breeze filled the damp air, then suddenly I could see two. The one on the left, an aura with something flowing and smooth. A silky streamer continuous through and through. A delicate dance soft and… Continue reading Two Auras
God won’t make me a girl
I had a weird dream a couple nights ago: I don’t remember the circumstances but I remember hitting a point where I was very frustrated. I know this comes after talking to my mom about religion and my being transgender. I feel conflicted about being transgender again because I was brought up in a church… Continue reading God won’t make me a girl
Trans-rejection
Today I talked with my mom about being transgender. Or rather she talked to me. I couldn’t really say much at the time. I think I mainly like to take what she says and mull over it for a while and see how I feel later. The classic objection to transgender people, or she had… Continue reading Trans-rejection